For a long time now I have been trying to figure out where I fit in this world, but it seems like everytime I think I get a handle on things, the world takes me for a spin and I have to start all over again.
One of the things I think that confuses me most is not knowing where you stand with someone. With me, there is never that question, I have no problem putting it all out there for you to know where you stand with me. Now when you get a person that is not good at communicating and lacks in self esteem trying to figure out where you stand with them is a nightmare. Of course you don't dare ask for fear of sending that person into some state of shock or even an episode where they hide out in their home for a week. So what do you do? Yeah, I have not figured this out yet. I have tried throwing a line out to see if they would bite, sometimes they did and sometimes it was the cold shoulder. I think that I rather know where I stood with someone and be hurt by their choice than to not know at least we can get past the hurt of knowing but not knowing leaves us stuck in the land of confusion.
2 comments:
That's a rock and a hard place.
The not knowing is the hardest.
But then again... I find myself asking... do I want a relationship where I have to do all the work, with someone who isn't capable of meeting me half way? It will eat a lot of your energy. Just a thought.
If you've tried throwing a line out, and that didn't work. I think silence is your best bet to get any response at all. I could be wrong. Trust the part of you that isn't attached to the outcome.
~S
You are so great with words and wisdom. I just need to listen better to good advise.
Maybe I will get the never to just ask where I stand, that would put an end to the not knowing.
Thanks Shephard, you are a very dear freind even though we are mile apart sometimes I feel that you are right here walking beside me as I take your words where ever I go.
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